Stupid Murphy

     Yesterday marked 4 weeks until the wedding....which of course means I am now in total freak out mode trying to get everything put together.  And let's just say that murphy's law is in full force as it seems lately that EVERYTHING seems to be going wrong.  I went to get my dress altered, only to find out that thanks to a lovely thing called birth control that the top part of my wedding dress no longer fit.  The seamstress took it out, however she went a little crazy with it and now the top is too big.  The worst part is when I tried it on again, I hated it, but she managed to convince me in the moment that it looked fine.  But now I can't stop thinking about how horrible it looked and how unhappy I am with it.  With only 4 weeks to go and bridal pictures coming up, the last thing I need is to be unhappy with my dress.

     Another major stumbling block we have run into is my aunt volunteered to do our wedding announcements at cost.  I was weery at first, but jumped at the chance to save some money.  Now I'm regretting that decision.  My aunt is very opinionated and knows what she likes and wants to do, which works well for the businesswoman she is, however it is a major challenge to deal with when working with her.  Jeff and I went to her house last week, armed with a sample of EXACTLY what we wanted.  Unfortunately, my aunt also had a sample of what she was envisioning, and it was far different.  Before I knew it, she was drawing up an announcement based on her sample, not ours.  I stressed to her the important things I wanted on the announcement and she said ok, but I had a sick feeling in my stomach when we left that the announcements would end up being nothing close to what we wanted.  Unfortunately I found out today I was right.  The announcement looked EXACTLY like the sample she had shown us, and NOTHING like the sample we had brought and left with her.  With so little time left and wanting to get announcements out by the beginning of next week, I am beyond frustrated and stressed out right now.  It just feels like control over the wedding planning has completely slipped out of my hands and there isn't anything I can do about it.

    Jeff, seeing all my stress over the wedding planning, put together a whole day date for us yesterday since we both had the day off.  We went swimming in the morning at his apartment.  When Jeff came to pick me up after we both got ready, he surprised me with a dozen beautiful roses!  We then hadbrunch at Einstein Bagels.  After eating we drove over to Trafalga where we played some mini golf (I totally won...that is if highest score wins, which in my version of golf, it does) and won some tickets playing the games.  After that we drove over to the movie theater to see "The Amazing Spiderman".  And I must say, it is quite amazing, definitely better than the old ones.  We finished the day off with Jeff cooking me dinner and then getting together with my roommates and other people in the ward to watch "Ferris Buellers Day Out" outside in our parking lot--very cool :)
     I know I need to see the bigger picture now and not get so lost in the small wedding details, and instead of focus on what's most important.  It's like Elder Mautz told me...no matter what, the important thing is we will be married.  Less than four weeks from now, I get to marry my best friend for time and all eternity.  What's there to be upset about?